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chosen for his future home. His mind was fully and unhesitatingly prepared for his course. Every mist seemed to have cleared from his horizon, and he could distinguish the very path he would take, and the very landmarks he would pass. All this appeared, indeed, like God's assisting him; neither did he neglect still to say, "If Thy presence go not with me, carry me not up hence." And what could more be done? We cannot tell; but it is an awful thought, that, as it was with Balaam, so it may be with us, when all seems going rightly on, wrath may be abroad and in our path. His would strike us, perhaps, as a light sin; he but asked a second time to be suffered to go with the king's messengers :how often do we not only ask but determine that we will do this or that, giving ourselves, too, much credit for overcoming obstacles that stood in our way: in mental things we reason and reason, and at last the difficulties vanish: in religious questions we fancy God has helped us, whereas, perhaps, He has only said, "Go with the men.” This is a serious reflection for many in these times. O, speed the day when the Great Head of the CATHOLIC CHURCH, either by the stupendous movements of His providence, or by the signal effusion of grace and wisdom on His people, shall remove from Her Whole Congregation that dimness and infirmity and reproach which, at least, extenuates the uneasy wanderings of the scrupulous, and, alas, too palpably encourages the sin of the schismatic.

But we must hasten on. A.'s first step was, of course, to acquaint his Vicar and brother Curate with his change. They were not unprepared for it, and while they lamented the loss of their valued coadjutor, they deeply sympathised in much of the

kinnon, M.P.'s; Archdeacon Manning, Dr. Tait, Dr. Phillimore, Dr. Mereweather, Dr. Russell—are a few of those whose presence our note-book has preserved in our more immediate remembrance, beside those whose world-known and distinguished championship of Church principles has associated their names for ever with the thoughts of that assembly and that day. But it was over; and, as we said, its Result was developed.

How subsequent months confirmed and established and carried out that result, need not be repeated. In the Ichabod on the lips of many an affectionate frequenter of Margaret Chapel, in the missing of one after another, and another, and another of earnest teachers from their place and office, in the scornful rebukes of those around who loved to come in to sow the tares of vexation where they had no other right of entrance. The first point of the line of grief was the censure of the Regius Hebrew Professor, or even earlier in the well-known case of Mr. Macmullen's examination, and unbroken it continued till the loss of him upon whom all eyes have been turned, so affectingly and truly called "the intensest loss we could have had." It was the hour and the power of darkness, and fear paralyzed the mind and faithlessness blinded the eyes of many.

Once more Eustace directed his journeyings towards E-, for the last time. He determined that the indignant non-placet which burst rather from his heart than from his lips, in his place in the Theatre on the 13th of February, should be the closing of his acts as an English Churchman: and now he turned to set his house in order, that he might henceforth die to the world and retire to silence and secrecy in the community he had

His mind was fully

chosen for his future home. and unhesitatingly prepared for his course. Every mist seemed to have cleared from his horizon, and he could distinguish the very path he would take, and the very landmarks he would pass. All this appeared, indeed, like God's assisting him; neither did he neglect still to say, "If Thy presence go not with me, carry me not up hence." And what could more be done? We cannot tell; but it is an awful thought, that, as it was with Balaam, so it may be with us, when all seems going rightly on, wrath may be abroad and in our path. His would strike us, perhaps, as a light sin; he but asked a second time to be suffered to go with the king's messengers :how often do we not only ask but determine that we will do this or that, giving ourselves, too, much credit for overcoming obstacles that stood in our way: in mental things we reason and reason, and at last the difficulties vanish: in religious questions we fancy God has helped us, whereas, perhaps, He has only said, "Go with the men." is a serious reflection for many in these times. O, speed the day when the Great Head of the CATHOLIC CHURCH, either by the stupendous movements of His providence, or by the signal effusion of grace and wisdom on His people, shall remove from Her Whole Congregation that dimness and infirmity and reproach which, at least, extenuates the uneasy wanderings of the scrupulous, and, alas, too palpably encourages the sin of the schismatic.

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But we must hasten on. A.'s first step was, of course, to acquaint his Vicar and brother Curate with his change. They were not unprepared for it, and while they lamented the loss of their valued coadjutor, they deeply sympathised in much of the

feeling which led him from them. With the people the case was far different. As soon as the news spread, the lamentation and mourning became universal for their favourite pastor, their favourite everywhere,-notwithstanding his "Romanising;" for his urbanity and pure benevolence had won all hearts. Leave-takings he, however, avoided as a profitless expenditure of time and feeling; for a few days he continued with his sister in the strictest privacy, arranging various matters, and laying all his parochial business in an open form, ready to be taken up by his successor. His secretaryships and management of societies and benevolent funds, and his parish plans of labour, and his beloved schools and villages, must all pass to other hands: his task in them was done. God send them such another overseer!

The last question of importance regarded the disposal of worldly property. Augusta had prepared herself to follow close upon her brother's steps, both as to joining the Roman Catholic Church, and embracing a Religious Life. All then was done with, or useful only as it might serve as offerings to the Church.

It was the middle of March when the brother and sister submitted together to the rite of baptism by a Roman Catholic Priest, and they then considered that their connection with the world had closed for ever, and but waited a short time to separate to their respective future places. But before this final act another event occurred.

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CHAPTER V.

The Sacrifice of All.

Ich hebe mein Haupt kühn empor zu dem drohenden Felsengebirge, und zu dem tobenden Wassersturze, und zu den krachenden, in einem Feuermeer schwimmenden Wölken, und sage: "Ich bin ewig, und ich trotze eurer Macht! Brecht alle herab auf mich; und du Erde, und du Himmel, vermischt euch im wilden Tumulte! und ihr Elemente alle, schäumet und tobet, und zerreibet im wilden Kampfe das letzte Sonnenstäubchen des Körpers den ich mein nenne! Mein Wille allein mit seinem festen Plane soll kühn und triumphirend über den Trümmern des Weltalls schweben; denn ich habe meine Bestimmung ergriffen, und die ist dauernder als ihr; sie ist ewig, und ich bin ewig, wie sie.”—Die Bestimmung des Menschen.

FICHTE.

2 the midst of purposes and decisions and arrangements and plans, the attention of Eustace and Augusta A. was forcibly called to interests deeply affecting their younger sister, who, we have before mentioned, was married to a clergyman, and who was now residing in a charming rectory in the south of England. Mr. F., was the most amiable of men, and distinguished as a scholar and an author, and the gentlest, the wildest, the joyfullest of the daughters of men, was Margaret, his young wife. That one bright inheritance of Eden, the gift of glorious beauty, had rested on

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