which, I know he will open to me? But it is better to give than to receive; and I was a very patient hearer, and docile scholar, in our winter evening meetings at Mr May's; was I not, Coleridge? What I have owed to thee, my heart can ne'er forget. I discern a possibility of my paying you a visit next week. May I, can I, shall I, come so soon? Have you room for me, leisure for me? and are you pretty well? Tell me all this honestly-immediately. And by what day coach could I come soonest and nearest to Stowey? A few months hence may suit you better; certainly me, as well. If so, say so. I long, I yearn, with all the longings of a child do I desire to see you, to come among you to see the young philosopher, to thank Sara for her last year's invitation in person to read your tragedy-to read over together our little book-to breathe fresh air-to revive in me vivid images of "Salutation scenery." There is a sort of sacrilege in my letting such ideas slip out of my mind and memory. Still that Richardson remaineth—a thorn in the side of Hope, when she would lean towards Stowey. Here I will leave off, for I dislike to fill up this paper (which involves a question so connected with my heart and soul) with meaner matter, or subjects to me less interesting. I can talk, as I can think, nothing else. Thursday. C. LAMB. [July, 1797]. I am scarcely yet so reconciled to the loss of you, or so subsided into my wonted uniformity of feeling, as to sit calmly down to think of you and write to you. But I reason myself into the belief that those few and pleasant holidays shall not have been spent in vain. I feel improvement in the recollection of many a casual conversation. The names of Tom Poole, of Wordsworth and his good sister, with thine and Sara's, are become "familiar in my mouth as household words." You would make me very happy if you think W. has no objection, by transcribing for me that inscription of his. I have some scattered sentences ever floating on my memory, teasing me that I cannot remember more of it. You may believe I will make no improper use of it. Believe me I can think now of many subjects on which I had planned gaining information from you; but I forgot my "treasure's worth" while I possessed it. Your leg is now become to me a matter of much more importance; and many a little thing, which when I was present with you seemed scarce to indent my notice, now presses painfully on my remembrance. Is the Patriot come? Are Wordsworth and his sister gone yet? I was looking out for John Thelwall all the way from Bridgewater; and had I met him, I think it would have moved almost me to tears. You will oblige me, too, by sending me my great-coat, which I left behind in the oblivious state the mind is thrown into at parting. Is it not ridiculous that I sometimes envy that great-coat lingering so cunningly behind! At present I have none : so send it to me by a Stowey waggon, if there be such a thing, directing for C. L., No. 45, Chapel Street, Pentonville, near London. But above all, that Inscription! It will recall to me the tones of all your voices, and with them many a remembered kindness to one who could and can repay you all only by the silence of a grateful heart. I could not talk much while I was with you; but my silence was not sullenness, nor I hope from any bad motive; but, in truth, disuse has made me awkward at it. I know I behaved myself, particularly at Tom Poole's, and at Cruikshank's, most like a sulky child; but company and converse are strange to me. It was kind in you all to endure me as you did. Are you and your dear Sara-to me also very dear, because very kind-agreed yet about the management of little Hartley? And how go on the little rogue's teeth? I will see White to-morrow and he shall send you information on that matter; but as perhaps I can do it as well, after talking with him, I will keep this letter open. My love and thanks to you and all of you. C. L. Wednesday Evening. XXIX. TO THE SAME Sept. 1797. WRITTEN A TWELVEMONTH AFTER THE EVENTS [Friday next, Coleridge, is the day on which my Mother died] ALAS! how I am chang'd! Where be the tears, With which I hung o'er my dead mother's corse? Of the valley all must tread. Lend us thy balms, Thou dear Physician of the sin-sick soul, With which the world has pierc'd us thro' and thro'. Contain'd, and to one purpose stedfast drawn, Thou, and I, dear friend, With filial recognition sweet, shall know Those days of vanity to return again, (Nor fitting me to ask, nor thee to give). Vain loves and wanderings with a fair-hair'd maid, My captive heart steep'd in idolatry And creature-loves. Forgive me, O my Maker! If in a mood of grief I sin almost In sometimes brooding on the days long past, Her little one. O where be now those sports, O my companions, O ye loved names Of friend, or playmate dear; gone are ye now. years, The following I wrote when I had returned from Charles Lloyd, leaving him behind at Burton, with Southey. To understand some of it, you must remember that at that time he was very much perplexed in mind. A stranger, and alone, I pass those scenes Around me, and the pleasant voice of friend Whose soul is sore perplexed. Shine Thou on him, Make plain his way before him: his own thoughts The former of these poems I wrote with unusual celerity t'other morning at office. I expect you to like it better than any thing of mine; Lloyd does, and I do myself. You use Lloyd very ill, never writing to him. I tell you again that his is not a mind with which you should play tricks. He deserves more tenderness from you. For myself, I must spoil a little passage of Beaumont and Fletcher's to adapt it to my feelings : "I am prouder That I was once your friend, tho' now forgot, If "When time drives flocks from field to fold, |