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little Fairclough on the evening of Saturday the | thirty-first of July.

An invitation from Mrs. Ainslie awaited me. Tuesday is Edwin's birthday, and it is expected he will spend it at home. I intend walking over to Darliston this evening, and if all is well there, shall have much pleasure in joining the family-gathering.

Helen appeared here before church-time yesterday morning and gave me a very warm welcome back. She wished me to accompany her to Darliston Hall to dinner. I at first was disposed to decline going, but gave way when she proceeded to say:

"I came away very quietly, and Grant did not look for my starting so much earlier than usual. I counted on having your escort on the return."

"You think he is sure to follow? you still fear he has not given up thoughts about you?" Helen shook her head and answered, "He has said nothing; nothing that I could exactly find fault with; but I feel certain he entertains no idea of giving me up to Mr. Mainwaring."

"He knows it is Mr. Mainwaring who claims you?"

66 'Ah, would that he knew what right he has to claim me. It is not fair towards him, and very awkward for me; I do not know how I ought to behave. I suppose he guessed it was Mr. Mainwaring. Last week he made some remarks about him that were not such as his wife should suffer in her presence. I rose to leave the room. He rose too, and followed me to the door; his eyes upon my face. He did not speak then; he only opened the door for me; a very unusual piece of politeness on his part. Next time we met he said he was afraid he had driven me out of the room. I answered that if he talked scandal about my friends I was not one to sit still and listen. 'Mr. Mainwaring is your friend, then?' he said, | with rather marked emphasis. Yes, my cousin,' I answered, deliberately, Mr. Mainwaring is my friend.' 'Oh, then, I'm bound to beg your pardon,' he said; and then added, 'but Helen, it generally takes some time to know who is a real friend; and as I could not know you had much acquaintance with this one, I think you should forgive me.' I said I could forgive what was said in ignorance, for so I feel I ought. Very likely, though, he repeated what he did concerning Mr. Mainwaring in order to test if his guess were correct."

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'Probably he may have had a double motive, Helen. If he only suspected Mr. Mainwaring of being his successful rival it is too likely he wished to depreciate him."

Helen's expectation was well founded; her cousin came to church, and though he abstained from joining us on our walk thence, doubtless if Helen had been alone he would not have tarried behind as he did. He was up with us in time to open the garden gate. I observed that he still looked pale, and his voice retained

the quietude of tone acquired during his London visit. If anything this was a little more marked when he addressed Helen. During dinner he was attentive to the requirements of those about him, and he conversed a little with me about the places I had visited in town.

Old Mr. Wainwright did not look ill, but certainly was much weakened, and seemed less awake to the general conversation than usual. He was friendly towards myself, and I was pleased to observe that Alice Ainslie was much in favour with him. He expressed regret that she was leaving on the morrow, and told her she must come again when she could be spared.

Dinner over, Helen proposed to read her grandfather to sleep, and urged me to take Alice a walk in the garden, as she had been indoors all the morning. I readily acquiesced. Grant Wainwright showed no disposition to move, although Alice stopped at the door and looked back as if she expected him to follow. Closing it upon them my thoughtful little cousin glanced at me with almost a distressed countenance, and as we stepped into the air said: "You see how it is ?"

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"He is very much changed for the better in demeanour," I answered; so remarkably indeed, that I fear he calculates on some success by its means."

"He is very confident, I know it," proceeded Alice; " and I think too he is taking the surest means of success. Yet Helen will never be happy if she marries him, I feel sure of that."

"You do not like him?"

"I should not perhaps dislike him if I were indifferent in this matter; but, I am sure it would be wrong of Miss Dalziel to allow herself to be won from one so much more worthy. I know she is engaged, and whom to, although I have not been precisely told so."

"After all, dear Alice, why should we fear? Helen is not of a fickle nature."

"No; but, though he does not speak words of love, he is making love to her all the time he is in her company. I see it, though I don't know how to describe it. The very change you notice, is it not one continual flattery? He never loses an opportunity of sitting beside her; waiting on her; his eyes are on her continually. He will sit now, I daresay, until we return, silent while she reads, whether aloud or to herself; doing nothing, but as it were content ing himself in being with her and watching her. Yesterday while reading to his uncle he stopped in the most interesting passage of a speech of our county member's, to pick up a reel of cotton for her. Then, though he dares not attack Mr. Mainwaring's character openly, I am aware he is trying to undermine her faith in him. You know, of course, that the engagement was conducive to Mr. Mainwaring's interests in another way than that of affection. Well, he will talk, referring to some affair in the newspaper, of the unhappy results of mercenary marriages. In particular I remember on Thursday his speaking of one such

where the wife had eloped with her first love. He said he laid the blame upon those who had forced her to accept a man who loved her money rather than herself."

"And how does Helen take this?"

"Gravely; with a steadiness of manner I admire in her; but still at times I fear it has some weight. One thing I am certain of, the constant sense of being so watched in every look and movement is a great fatigue to her. She must feel always on the defensive." "Mr. Merton Brown called, I understand, on Friday. Do you know if Grant saw him

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"Yes, the last. We were all in the parlour and I felt half frightened when Mr. Grant walked in; but the two gentlemen saluted each other in a perfectly peaceful manner. Brown continued talking to old Mr. Wainwright, and Mr. Grant spoke to Helen about some trifling matter, a new stirrup leather I think it was. He afterwards accompanied Mr. Brown to the gate."

Helen was looking pale and had taken no exercise: then the old man said she must ride. Helen observed that her mare was likely to want exercise more than herself and she wished Dick Wilcox would lead her out for a good gallop daily, else she would hardly be safe to mount.

"I have attended to that," Grant said directly; "she is in very safe condition. Indeed her temper must be improved, or I have become a lighter weight; for she has at last consented to take me for something better than kicking and contention. We have had quite a friendly gallop over the marsh."

Helen looked surprised, almost alarmed, by this. Her first thought she afterwards told me was that poor Prossy had met with severe treatment.

"You remember clipping Grey Randal's mane, Helen?" Grant proceeded. "What a little termagant you were! I think we are all getting tamer together; you, and I, and Prossy. However you must have a gallop now and then, As Alice had surmised, Grant was still in the must she not, Mrs. Gainsborough? or we shall parlour when we returned to it, and he was with be seeing you a great deal too tame soon. The us during the greater part of my stay, so that I men will be at work at the oats near the marsh had little opportunity for conversation other for the rest of the week, so you may ride withthan of a general kind. I arranged, however, out fear in that direction. Only keep on the in regard to Helen's studies during the after-safe side of the Cleft channel." noon three times in the week. In this I had regard less to her improvement than the necessity for her having other companionship than that of her assiduous cousin. Although he comes in at intervals during the day, farming affairs usually engage him the greater part of the morning, and it is chiefly between four o'clock and eight that Helen has to endure the fatigue of his company.

Friday, August 6th.

I spent a very pleasant evening on Tuesday at Cedar Lawn. Edwin must have been satisfied he was made much of by all.

Mr. Coalhurst has, I understand, been doing the devoted to Laura during the last month, and it struck me that he was jealous that she gave so very much of her time and attention to her brother, and seemed so greatly to enjoy his society. Considering how short and infrequent are his visits to his home, it seemed to me rather amiable of her. I am sure her conduct was spontaneous and not derived from any disposition to tease. Yet now and then she certainly does tease her admirer, and I question if he is most irritated or attracted by her combative inclination.

Rather a longer time than usual has elapsed since we heard from Mr. Mainwaring; but this may be accounted for by his being some miles out of Vienna.

The more I notice old Mr. Wainwright the more I perceive that his mind has been lessened in activity by his recent illness. He seems to require that Grant should detail the events of the day on the farm; but pays only slight attention, and assents to everything. Evidently he takes such information for amusement. Grant noticed yesterday in his presence that

Alice was quite correct in her observation; Grant Wainwright does constantly exhibit towards Helen that most flattering sort of courtship which is demonstrated by a close attention to her wants, her looks. Yet, as Helen says to me, while he steers clear of words that she can cavil at, while he avoids sentiment and behaves rather as a particularly devoted brother might do, what power has she to put a stop to this?

Saturday night, August 7th.

Still no news from the continent. Poor Helen declares she is quite hungry for a letter, and I begin to surmise that one may have miscarried.

I found her in the orchard this afternoon when I arrived. I saw she looked anxious and that her cheerfulness was forced. "I have a note from Alice kindly offering to come again," she said, " and think of availing myself of her offer, though certainly I have not the excuse of needing her help as nurse; for my grandfather, though not active, requires very little tend

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"I hope then, dear, you may feel more at liberty; for your staying at his side, though quite right while it is needful, is almost making you look an invalid yourself. Did you have a good ride on the marsh yesterday?"

"Yes; but if it did me good one way it gave me some worry too. You know Grant has certainly been very good, but I do not like to feel that he is only good on my account. That I am, as it were, running into a debt with him which I cannot pay. 1 ride seldom because I have found that when I have done so, he either has mounted guard over me himself or sent another to insure that no such adventure could befal me as that which led to my leaping the

cleft. Yesterday when I came to the channel | I turned my rein towards the sea, and presently heard him coming up along the other side by the same narrow path where I was overtaken. He hailed me and made some remark about the tide, which was coming in rapidly and dashing among the rocks about the cleft in a very beautiful manner. I drew up to see it, and he brought his grey on to the plateau so that we were near enough to converse. He remarked that the ride had freshened me, and in a halfjesting way said, 'You look very attractive over there, Helen, What will you give me to leap Grey Randal across?' and he began backing for the leap. I cried Don't be so mad,' I was in real earnest frightened for him. He laughed and said Now you look like my Own little passionate Helen. Helen, I'm coming.'

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"No doubt the life I have been leading o late has tended to make me nervous. I was so agitated I could hardly keep my saddle. I knew it was best not to speak, but I could not conceal my distress. My cousin dismounted and came up to me saying, 'You were really frightened. Now scold me as I deserve, though I must say I'd do it again any day in the week for the pleasure of seeing you cared that much for me." "

"I did not dare to trust my voice, but tried hard for composure and soon was able to guide my mare onward. He still urged me to speak; to give him a smart scolding. I chose to ride away in silence and he followed at some distance. This morning he alluded to the matter, asking, with a smile, if I were going to make him leap the cleft again to-day. I answered that such a feat was not to my taste, and little calculated to benefit my nerves. Then he said he feared he had been inconsiderate, but that the temptation was too strong at the moment to be resisted. How very different from Grant's former self," said Helen in conclusion, "to admit that women's nerves should he considered."

"Helen," I answered, "I hope for your cousin's sake that much of the change in him may be grounded on a serious conviction that his former conduct and manner were unbecoming and unworthy; but it may be as well to bear in mind that what is not so grounded is merely, as it were, a part played for a purpose. Do not let his exemplary behaviour tempt you to treat him otherwise than you have done; for his sake, for your own sake, and for the sake of our absent friend."

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"Don't you think, Helen, it might be possible to make your grandfather see the expediency of acquainting Grant with the fact of your marriage?"

"I dare not urge it. You see how he is just now; on pleasant terms with Grant, the affairs going on just serve to amuse him, and he is secure and confident that all will go right. Dr. Meredith said I must be especially careful to keep him from any worry or excitement. No, it's very unhappy for me, and worse for Grant; but we must bear it."

"You had no private conversation with Mr. Brown when he was here?"

"No; and nothing of much importance was spoken of, except that he mentioned our palefaced man had been positively identified, his natural complexion having returned. We had some talk too of Mr. Witham. I believe he is still under careful observation, but nothing has been discovered to confirm suspiciou.”

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Does Mr. Grant know that he is other than he represented himself?"

"I feel uncertain. I am afraid of touching upon the subject, as I must not yet say how much reason there is to suspect him; and I do not wish to enter upon the matter of our warning through Alfred Merrivale, or the photographs from the continent."

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It seems the horse-dealer could get off without applying to your cousin for a character. What sort of one do you think he could have given ?"

"He said he knew nothing of him beyond the fact that he was a horse-dealer. He was very angry indeed about his conduct on the marsh. The only time I have heard him swear since his return from London was when he adverted to it."

I mentioned to Helen that I had received the day previous a few lines from Merton Brown, dated from his brother's house in Derbyshire. He intended coming again to our neighbourhood before long, and assured me he was quite at liberty, did I see any reason to wish for his presence, to be with us immediately.

My pupil completed that day a very pretty sketch of two old pear-trees in the orchard. The next subject is to be selected at the rocks. It is to be a very small drawing, so that it may be forwarded in a letter to a certain friend abroad, whose twenty-second birthday anniversary is not far off.

CHAP. XXXIX.

CAREFUL SAILING. A SIDE WIND FROM AN OLD FRIEND.

Thursday, August 12th.-I received a visit from Willie Ainslie on Monday. He came to bid me good-bye before returning to school, and brought a little note from Alice, in which she

wrote that she feared Miss Dalziel thought her offer to visit Darliston again so soon implied some self-denial; and she was desirous I should assure Helen that the contrary was the case, as she had a special private reason for wishing at the present time to be away from home.

What that reason can be puzzles me, but I cannot be sorry she is so desirous of being with Helen. I sent back word that I would attend to the matter she spoke of.

Helen's sketch from the rocks was commenced that day. On the north side where they shelve towards the bay we found shelter from the afternoon sun, and while my pupil took a portion of the rock for a study, I ventured on the more extended prospect which included Cardington Castle.

I had a ride with Helen afterwards, and in the evening she sung to me. Her grandfather retires now at eight o'clock, and the piano being against the wall of his room, he hears her music, but says he likes it, that it sets him off comfortably to sleep. If Grant Wainwright has not previously departed, he rises and says goodnight when the old gentleman does so; having been, I suspect, required to observe this rule by his uncle. I am concerned to hear to-day that it is only in seeming he takes his departure then.

Mrs. Cargill either found or made an excuse to come down to the village to-day, and called upon me. Her first question was concerning Miss Alice Ainslie-if I knew when she was likely to come again to Darliston Hall. I had heard nothing since Alice's note came, but knew Helen had written expressing readiness to receive her; so I replied that I believed it would be soon.

“Well, ma'am,” said Mrs. Cargill, "the sooner the better, say I; she's a sweet young lady, and so thoughtful, like. Master likes her, and I would be glad to see her come at any time; but just now most partic❜larly. I feel so bewildered with one thing or another-master being not himself, nor Grant neither."

"Have you anything new to tell me about him?" I asked.

“Well, ma'am,” she proceeded, "you see he has been altogether so changed since master told him Miss Helen was engaged; and he don't go on about her to me as he used: but for all that, somehow, I don't know what he does think about her. Certainly, considering, things have gone on of late wonderfully smooth and pleasant; and I don't want to be the first to make a stir about anything; yet it makes me uneasy like, to see that when Miss Helen thinks Mr. Grant has gone off to his home, and she sits singing to herself, he's always now a-sitting listening. He goes into the spare bedroom, which you know is on the other side of masters, and sits there in the dark. It seems a thing as is no harm in itself, but I know if I was to tell Miss Helen she would stop playing, which would be a pity, for it pleases her and pleases master. Now you see if Miss Alice was at

Darliston, either he would not stay, or there could be no harm if he did?"

Saturday, August 14th.-I went the same evening to Darliston, and heard from Helen that Mrs. Ainslie had written, fixing the end of the following week for Alice's next visit. I the more wished an earlier day had been named in that Helen's spirits evidently required cheering under the depressing effects of the prolonged silence of our correspondent. Mr. Mainwaring had never let more than ten days elapse between his letters. We had agreed to consider one lost, but now more than double the time had passed bringing nothing from him.

Messrs. Gray and Dennison wish to see me in Liverpool on Monday, so I went up this evening to sit a few hours with Helen. I had previously counselled her against sitting long alone in the dreary drawing-room as ill calculated to keep up her cheerfulness; but in answer was told it was to her the happiest place in the house-the only room where she had been with him. I therefore contented myself with enjoining Nanny Cargill to keep as good watch as she could to prevent Helen receiving any annoyance, and if the key of the spare room could not be found (which I understood was the case), either to find other means of fastening the door, or to say at once to Mr. Grant Wainwright that she could not think it right to let him conceal himself there, and must speak to her master if he insisted upon the practice.

Nothing else worth noting has occurred this week, except that this morning another bouquet arrived by the carrier for Helen. Grant was by when it came. He knew what the little box was likely to contain, as the servants had told him about the last. He brought it into the parlour himself, saying: "This is for you, Helen, do you know who it comes from?"

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No, I do not." she answered. "Well, Helen, you never told a falsehood yet, so I must believe you."

Nanny Cargill was in the room, and at Helen's bidding opened the box and took out the bouquet. Grant snatched it from her, looking at the poor flowers, Helen said, very contemptuously.

"What do you mean to do with them?" he questioned.

"I don't know," was her answer. "And don't care?" he said.

"I don't care, only as they are very pretty, and somebody I cannot object to-as I do not know him-has been so bountiful as to send them, I think you had better give them to Nanny to put in water: they may serve to decorate the drawing-room."

Grant deliberately crushed the bouquet in his hands, shred the flowers in pieces, and flung them out of window with a curse on the sender.

"They are sent by some lover, Helen," he said, "whoever he may be. I ought to beg pardon for swearing in your presence; but as to

your drawing-room, if you want flowers for that you can have plenty."

When he came in again at tea-time he had brought from his own garden enough for all the vases Nanny could muster.

Thursday night, August 19th.-The matter Messrs. Gray and Dennison had to speak of, concerned the probability of my husband being required to take command of the Andromeda, which was about sailing when her captain was taken with a serious attack of rheumatic gout. The cargo being very valuable, and wanted in the market, it is thought expedient Richard should leave his ship to the chance of Captain Starling's recovering, and bring home the laden vessel. On one account I must regret this-he will have no time to make the inquiries I wished; but, it is great compensation to think of his being home by Christmas, and making a long stay with me. Messrs Gray and Dennison were both very considerate towards me, and promised the search for news of the "Emma" should be followed up by their agent until something definite was known. Other affairs detained me some hours on Tuesday, and, when I arrived at home, I was too tired to undertake a visit to Darliston. I sent Lance with a note to say how it was with me, and forwarded also a letter I had found from Mr. Merton Brown. He had written to a friend in Vienna, and received a reply now enclosed.

The writer, a young Oxonian, travelling during the long vacation, had been desirous of an introduction to Arden Mainwaring. In answer to inquiries at Vienna, one person had told him he believed Lord St. George had sent him into Podolia: another jestingly said he thought he was on a private mission in Turkey -studying the sumptuary laws; as the last time he had seen him he was being earnestly consulted by an Archduchess on the subject of oriental costume. In fact he could get no certain information concerning either Mr. Mainwaring or his lady relatives; and had been advised to forward the letter of introduction he carried to the care of Lord St. George, who was most likely to know what had become of his secretary.

Mr. Merton Brown thought if we were still without a letter, this negative sort of information might appear better than none, as it proved that no ill-news was extant at Vienna concerning our friend.

I met Helen at the Croft next afternoon. I saw she had suffered from anxiety and hope deferred, but she strove to be gay, and proceeded very industriously with her sketch.

We had been busy with our drawings for about half-an-hour, when we were surprised by visitors. Mr. Hawkins and Mr. Grant Wainwright appeared in sight and joined us-the latter only for a few minutes, having come as guide. Mr. Hawkins tarried a while, talking on general subjects and watching Helen's work. Presently he said to her, "Why, Miss Helen; what have you been doing to your cousin.

Mr. Grant looks as pale, and is as changed as if he had started fair for a consumption. It isn't your fault, I hope?"

"I do not think anything ails Grant, now," Helen answered, but she coloured. "He was ill while in London."

"So I've heard," he said rather drily. Then, after a pause he continued, "maybe after all his illness and the rest of it may have been for his good. He has somehow been induced to avoid the foolish set who were about him a while ago. I know he refused an invitation to Captain Ashton's for to-day because he did not wish to meet that Witham. Still, I can plainly see his health is not what it used to be. He is not only thin and pale, but there is a spot of red rises in his cheek at times, like hectic, and his eyes seem unnaturally bright. I hope he's safe; but, you must not use him badly, for at his age there's no saying how it might turn out." "has my

"Mr. Hawkins," Helen said, cousin complained to you of my behaviour towards him?”

"No, not a word. To say the truth, I could not venture to speak to him on such a subjectespecially as it is reported he is not standing so well with you as formerly. I don't feel so ceremonious with you, for I've had you often on my knee, and you were never apt to take amiss my plain speaking; so I tell you my convictions: that young fellow loves you from the bottom of his heart, and he loves you for yourself. He's a fine young fellow, there isn't a handsomer in the country, and he's quite the gentleman. Now you are going to be an heiress one of these days, and will have dozens of lovers, but not one like him, that would take you without a penny if he had the pick of all the heiresses in the land. So, don't cross his love because he's a bit spirity at times. You were a little inclined that way yourself, once."

I would have given much to have checked this speech of Mr. Hawkins. It was too much for Helen; she fell into a fit of tears and sobbed violently. All I could do was to excuse her nervousness on the plea of her having been lately in such close attendance on her grandfather. I also told Mr. Hawkins as plainly as possible that Mr. Grant Wainwright had been informed by his uncle that his suit was unacceptable, and that he could only be recog nised at Darliston as a relation. Mr. Hawkins gave a sort of civil attention, but probably thought it still depended upon Helen's inclination," and calculated on his speech having had much weight. He apologised certainly, but the apology was as bad as what had gone before. He said he could not help speaking, for he was sure that one like Grant Wainwright could not give up a girl he loved at the bidding of any man, and that Helen, though she might find fault with him, might likely have more cause if she chose another.

Helen attained sufficient composure to say "You mean well, I know, Mr. Hawkins, but you don't know-”

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