The Bridegroom stood in the open door,
And he waved hands still and slow, And the third time that he waved his hands The air was thick with snow.
And of every flake of falling snow,
Before it touched the ground,
There came a dove, and a thousand doves
'T was the body of Judas Iscariot
Floated away full fleet,
And the wings of the doves that bare it off Were like its winding-sheet.
'T was the Bridegroom stood at the open door, And beckoned, smiling sweet;
'T was the soul of Judas Iscariot Stole in, and fell at his feet.
The Holy Supper is spread within,
And the many candles shine,
And I have waited long for thee Before I poured the wine!'
The supper wine is poured at last, The lights burn bright and fair, Iscariot washes the Bridegroom's feet, And dries them with his hair.
A woman whom I saw, pitiless, stern,
Bearing the brand of blood
And cruel eyes which glared beneath the gems Which argued her a Queen, and on her side An ancient stain of gore, which did befoul Her royal robe. A murderess in thought And dreadful act, who took within the toils Her kingly Lord, and slew him of old time After burnt Troy. I had no time to speak When she shrieked thus:
'It doth repent me not I would 't were yet to do, and I would do it Again a thousand times, if the shed blood Might for one hour restore to me the kisses Of my Ægisthus. Oh, he was divine, My hero, with the godlike locks and eyes Of Eros' self! What boots it that they prate Of wifely duty, love of spouse or child, Honor or pity, when the swift fire takes A woman's heart, and burns it out, and leaps With fierce forked tongue around it, till it lies
In ashes, a dead heart, nor aught remains Of old affections, naught but the new flame Which is unquenched desire?
My blessing, all at once, but the slow fruit Of solitude and midnight loneliness, And weary waiting for the tardy news Of taken Troy. Long years I sate alone, Widowed, within my palace, while my Lord Was over seas, waging the accursèd war, First of the file of Kings. Year after year Came false report, or harder, no report
Of the great fleet. The summers waxed and waned, The wintry surges smote the sounding shores, And yet there came no end of it. They brought Now hopeless failure, now great victories;
And all alike were false, all but delay
And hope deferred, which cometh not, but breaks The heart which suffering wrings not.
Long time the solitary years, and sought To solace the dull days with motherly cares For those my Lord had left me. My firstborn, Iphigeneia, sailed at first with him
Upon that fatal voyage, but the young
Orestes and Electra stayed with me
Not dear as she was, for the firstborn takes
The mother's heart, and, with the milk it draws
From the mother's virgin breast, drains all the love It bore, ay, even tho' the sire be dear;
Much more, then, when he is a King indeed, Mighty in war and council, but too high
To stoop to a woman's love. But she was gone, Nor heard I tidings of her, knowing not If yet she walked the earth, nor if she bare The load of children, even as I had borne
Her in my opening girlhood, when I leapt
From child to Queen, but never loved the King.
Thus the slow years rolled onward, till at last There came a dreadful rumor-'She is dead, The cruel priests
Thy daughter, years ago.
Clamored for blood; the stern cold Kings stood round
Without a tear, and he, her sire, with them,
To see a virgin bleed. They cut with knives The taper girlish throat; they watched the blood Drip slowly on the sand, and the young life Meek as a lamb come to the
To appease the angry gods.'
Her father, stood by too, and saw them do it,
The wickedness, breathing no word of wrath, Till all was done! The cowards! the dull cowards! I would some black storm, bursting suddenly,
Had whelmed them and their fleets, ere yet they dared To waste an innocent life!
I know it, but for him, my love, my dear, My fair sweet love. He came to comfort me With words of friendship, holding that my Lord Was bound, perhaps, to let her die — 'The gods Were ofttimes hard to appease - - or was it indeed The priests who asked it? Were there any gods? Or only phantoms, creatures of the brain, Born of the fears of men, the greed of priests,
Useful to govern women? Had he been
Lord of the fleet, not all the soothsayers
Who ever frighted cowards should have brought His soul to such black depths.' I hearkening to him As 't were my own thought grown articulate, Found my grief turn to hate, and hate to love Hate of my Lord, love of the voice which spoke Such dear and comfortable words. And thus,
Love to a storm of passion growing, swept My wounded soul and dried my tears, as dries The hot sirocco all the bitter pools
Of salt among the sand. I never knew True love before; I was a child, no more,
When the King cast his eyes on me.
To have borne the weight of offspring 'neath the zone, If Love be not their sire; or live long years
Of commerce, not of love? Better a day Of Passion than the long unlovely years Of wifely duty, when Love cometh not To wake the barren days!
I hesitated long, nor would embrace
The blessing that was mine. We are hedged round, We women, by such close-drawn ordinances,
Set round us by our tyrants, that we fear
To overstep a hand's breadth the dull bounds Of custom; but at last Love, waking in me, Burst all my chains asunder, and I lived For naught but Love.
My son, the young Orestes,
I sent far off; my girl Electra only
Remained, too young to doubt me, and I knew
At last what was to live.
Fleeted and found me happy, till the dark Ill-omened day when Rumor, thousand-tongued, Whispered of taken Troy; and from my dream Of happiness, sudden I woke, and knew The coming retribution. We had grown Too loving for concealment, and our tale Of mutual love was bruited far and wide Through Argos. All the gossips bruited it, And were all tongue to tell it to the King
When he should come. And should the cold proud Lord
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